February 10th, 2012. These pictures were taken yesterday. This is what I looked like for picture day at McCann, even though I was sick as a dog haha. I guess this is my accountability update, too.

Current health - Sick. I don’t know what I have but I think it’s a nasty cold or flu or something. Body aches and chills, stuffy/runny nose, headache, fatigue, harsh and painful cough. Eh. Everything else has been okay, I guess. Still smoking a lot, but not as often or as much as before. Still getting blood rushes.. yadda yadda. I don’t have the energy for this ha.

Fitness - Been experimenting with yoga and stretching, and I stretch my legs and stuff a lot when I’m just standing around. So far I’ve actually seen a difference in my muscle tone. I can’t wait until I can actually do yoga every day.

Measurements - 37 1/2-30 1/2-44. I’m currently 179.8 pounds. The lowest that I have been in the past month was 178, and that was a few weeks ago. I’ve been fluctuating between 180-183 for the past few weeks, but I guess that’s maintaining. I’d like to lose more and actually get to my first goal weight at least which is only (currently) 9.8 pounds away. I’m also about 6.8 pounds away from being 100 pounds down, so that’s exciting. (: I think within the next two months, I’m going to be seeing 170 and less. Here’s to hoping!

October 31st, 2011. 195 pounds. Happy Halloween everyone!

August 20th. Just decided to document my “two pounds away from being in the 100s!” It’s quite a difference. I don’t even really see this body when I look in the mirror. I feel so small and foreign. But I like it. 

August 11th. First of all, please excuse the mess. Anyway.. so I was looking through my mom’s closet for any clothes that could be mine, and I found this dress. At first I thought it was hers from when she was younger, but she told me it was mine from when I was a kid. I apparently used to go to Sunday school wearing this dress. I wouldn’t exactly consider it Sunday school appropriate anymore, considering the length on me now, but I can’t believe that I can get it on and have it look somewhat decent. 15-20 more pounds and it’ll look perfect on me. I have no idea what size it is, but I’m guessing about a 12-14. I have a feeling this is the beginning of a new style for me. 

July 12. Please please please excuse the blurriness. These are more to accentuate the shape of my body at this point. I found this dress earlier, and it’s pretty huge on me. I wore this two summers ago and it looked horrible. It still looks pretty bad, but this time because it’s so big, so I decided to put on this waist cincher that now fits incredibly. I am now down to 212 pounds even. That’s just over 60 pounds lost at this point. I’m a little over halfway to my goal, but my body is amazing right now as it is. I’m so confident in myself that I would love to pursue modeling. Not sure my face is that great for it, but I really don’t care at this point. I just think it would be such a confidence boost, even though my confidence really doesn’t need boosted at this point lol. I haven’t been to the gym at all since my surgery, but I’m still losing weight. I’m hoping to get in sometime this week, but who knows if that’ll happen since I’m just getting over a cold. Here’s to hoping, and here’s to finally having all the confidence in the world. 

June 22nd. Just picked this little cutie up off the side of the road. I almost hit him, and I couldn’t leave him there to get hit by someone else, so I got him up into the envoy and brought him home. He didn’t have any tags or anything, so mom called up the police to see if there had been any missing dogs reported, and we found the owner, unfortunately. He was so sweet. I was ready to wash him off (because he was muddy) and give him a new home. 

June 19th. Happy father’s day everyone!

Might as well call me Narcissa.

It’s been 3 1/2 weeks since my surgery and I’m healing really well. The stitches that popped are just about healed, and my right arm is almost completely healed and smooth. It’s still really red but I have almost all of my mobility back. I won’t be totally healed and able to go about things as I did before until six weeks after the surgery, so I still have two and a half weeks yet, but a lot of the swelling is gone and I’m really happy with how they look right now. I love the reactions that I’ve been getting when people see my incisions, including “What happened to your arms?!” and “Ew. That looks so nasty!”. It’s embarrassing but I’m so much more confident now than I was before the surgery. I can’t believe I ever lived the way that I did before. There’s such a difference. I’m not going to update with pictures of my arms until all the scabs and stuff are off, though. 

June 15th. Because Tweak is just so cute. Oh, did I mention that I got a perm?